a year ago....

at this point and time i was in sheer happiness. Everything with my friends and family were good. i was in a decent relationship and it was my senior year. This year compared to last just doesn't compare in more then one way. Yes im still with Kenny and things are fine with us, we are still together and doing good but the rest of life is just down hill. My family has fallen apart and thats including my aunts and uncles and so fourth. Bridge has cancer.... breast cancer... i didn't even know that was possible for dogs. I know i have peewee but bridge is only 5 and adding to the cancer shes going blind fast.. its almost like she aged to fast. we find out friday how long she has left. Friends this year just aren't the same. I feel like i know no one anymore. Ang is the only person who calls me on a regular and trys to hang out with me and makes an effort and yeah sometimes our plans drop or something else comes up but we don't hold it against eachother. Work is fine... i guess its just hectic and people think they can come to me to get away with shit. its annoying. I really would like to get the fuck out of my house its a terrible hellhole but finding room mates and place to live just isn't working out. My car took a shit... yes the bug. my cooling system is fucked and i don't have the money to get it fixed. Christmas is here and i have NO money to buy people anything. ): i would love to just sleep through my days at this point, or atleast until things get better or even run away.. i wouldn't mind that to much....
ugh im done...............



this blog is just a bunch of bickering.
Atlantic City tonight maybe it will take my mind off some things for a little

our hearts

are bigger then you could ever imagin.

life is a jumble

of words of things of memories of objects of places of people of letters of numbers of pictures of laughs of crys of animals.

life is weird and im not to sure about somethings.
im happy....kind of....
im sad.....kind of.....
im confused.....kind of....
im mad.....kind of....
im alot...........................................